My Precious Son

My darling son, my hands are shaking as I pen this letter....
It seems an eternity since I last laid eyes on your sweet face
Sometimes I feel as if you are a stranger to me
But at other times, I feel as if you must still be my precious little boy
Missing you has driven me nearly mad with grief
You were always such a perfect angel
Although I let them take you away from me,
I have always kept you close to my heart
I pray for you every night without fail
Sometimes I wonder if you even remember me
Although I don't deserve it,
God has blessed me with a new family
I adore the little ones, but it is the oldest girl who has stolen my heart
She has the gentlest of dispositions, but she is a bit of a dreamer
Sometimes she tends to act before she thinks
Before counting the cost....
I fear her impetuous nature might lead her into harm's way
I only wish she had a man such as you to watch over her
You've lived long enough now to know that sometimes,
People do all the wrong things....for all the right reasons
I swear I never meant to hurt you
I wanted only what was best for you
I pray everyday that you will find a woman to share your life
A woman who will love you as much as I do
I hope you'll spoil her as I wish I could have spoiled you
and that she will prove worthy of your devotion
I still see your face in my dreams
and I wish those dreams could go on forever....
But even the sweetest of dreams must come to an end
I pray that someday you will find it in your heart to forgive me
But even if that day should never come,
know that I will always love you.


(A kiss to remember)